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hello... the gothdoc is: IN... please hold...
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Created on 2008-08-26 01:13:06 (#16445259), last updated 2009-11-23
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Basic Info| Name: | ethereal_bride |
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Biohow many physicians do you know that have an ed? now you can add one to your list....
I hate food... I love fasting. I love the feeling of starvation... unfortunately.
hello, i'm bebe. i have always suffered from anorexia nervosa. i restrict to less than 200 calories a day ~ if i am not fasting.... If it weren't for exercising like crazy everyday, noone would lose weight. So, I must be in the negative calories by bedtime. I quickly & easily purge when needed after having been 'forced' to eat in front of people (work/family). Bulimia is no stranger here either ~ but these bouts are not as frequent anymore, thankfully. It is a roller coaster, is it not?? I am 31 years old; goth, married + child; I have Systemic Lupus (and the complications), Fibromyalgia, and Addison's Disease (Adrenal Insufficiency), PCOS, POTS, hormonal reactive hypoglycemia, and intermittent porphyria... wow, i know. and now, newly diagnosed: cyclic neutropenia. yay. I am quite sexually adventurous, married to an amazing man; i am an internal medicine specialist; work for 2 hospitals and a physician network clinic; i teach at a college; and i am termed by others that do not understand this ED as, umm, well, 'sick'...
i have decided not to post my stats here anymore; if you are curious, please just ask, i don't bite!! well, not over the internet anyway!
i don't care to have anything in my stomach besides my meds and water... it just feels horrid and nauseating to have bulk churning of any sorts.
I am battling myself; the 27 medicines I need to take all day to simply survive are also the medicines that help make me fat... so I am self-dosing now. I hate my ED, and the war it creates in my life. but, i would hate myself more without my ED... if that doesn't make sense to you ~~ then you are not in my league.
I am looking for friends with same sad struggles. i love learning, science, poetry, sexcapades, compulsive exercising, educating, medicine, starvation, and art. I have more about me on my journal. i dislike bullies, and mean spirited ppl. please, play nice!!!!! or you'll earn yourself a time-out...
my journal is still not friends-only. however, you can message me and let me know if you desire to be added to to my friend's list. all are welcome to view my poetry, my recipes, my medical knowledge, and my sometimes morbid thoughts. i have indeed become a tad picky on who i add back nowadays, so if you are looking for 'ana/mia tips & trix', please, do not add me... ED's are not glamorous.
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